Tuesday, 17 May 2011

My heart breaks for you.


You scare me to be perfectly honest, every time I see you I'm scared but I love you. Whenever I see you I think this isn't what you wanted when you grew up, this wasn't the dream as you played with you dolls or played dress up, you never wanted to be a junkie whore, My heart breaks for you.

You scare me the way you are so out of it, you have no idea what I’m doing or why I am here giving you tea, you cant even hear what I’m saying. You scare me the way your eyes slowly roll back into your head like your trying to see behind you but cant turn your head. The way your knees bend like you want to sit down. My heart breaks for you.

I see you there during the day and I know you are there throughout the night, unable to stop working because you need the next fix. I see you begging but no one will give you money because you're a junkie, I see you working on the street because you're a junkie, where is the way out? I watch you slowly walk away, a guy not far behind, I see you in your state, arranging a fee and take him to the next corner, my heart breaks for you.

I don't know what to say to you, I don't even know where to start, what can I say that you will remember when you come round. I want to do more for you because my heart breaks for you.

People look at you like you're scum because of this life you are living, people look at me with pride because I take the scum tea. You are a tweaker, I’m a missionary, neither of us are doing what we thought we would when we were children - back before you were broken and I was healed but I know you never grew up wanting to be a junkie whore and now my heart breaks for you.  

Monday, 16 May 2011

Day 11 - The Person You Would Like To Trade Places With For The Day!

I would love to know what goes on inside his head! Plus I would like to be kick in the nuts just to see how much it hurts, eat and eat and eat and not get fat, know how it feel to be really smart and what it feels like when I'm horrible. 



Sunday, 15 May 2011

Saturday, 14 May 2011

Day 9 – The Person You Have Done the Craziest Things With.

I can't even begin to explain (and shouldn't) half the stuff we have done together, what fun the last 8 years have been because of you. Missing you terribly Gemma-Claire.  


Friday, 13 May 2011

Day 8 – A Picture Of The Person Who Has Got You Though The Most.

The picture really says it all, that's the reason you were all my bridesmaids (and ushers) and why this photo is my favorite and goes everywhere with us. Love you guys thanks for all you have done and still do.